WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

Oops...exams ^^

It’s been ages since I update my blog. Been busy with assignments & presentations, finally it comes to an end…still left 1 more to wrap up this semester which is final exams.

I’m currently at my hometown. I’ve been taking medicine, vitamin pills as I’m lacking of antibody. Down with flu & nose block for almost a month. Nose infection as it seems… Haven’t fully recover. Hopefully I can recover very soon. I want 100% fit for my exams! Thanks mummy who cook nice nice food for me ^^

Need to prepare for exams again…which I’m fear of. However I will fight for it. *I’m tough Kuan Ye* Thanks for the offer. I know you have been helping me a lot. Don’t worry; I won’t disappoint you this time. You said I was confident this time. I’m not, but I have to…J Nothing great has ever been achieved except by those who dared enough to believe that something inside them was superior to circumstances. It's not easy to stand up after falling each time. It’s going to be tough for me but I will be tougher. Not forgetting to thanks those especially...........(name couldn't be mentioned, :P) who hold me up whenever I fall each time. 'The Winning Team begins with ME' :)

‘Perfect practice makes perfect!’ Thanks for the encouragement.... * winks* It's mean a lot to me. Dun misunderstand ya~ Frens encouragement often meant a lot to me and of course you are my fren.

-If you can see what I see…

If you can feel what I feel…

You will know the answer in my heart…-

~happy birthday to dearest fren~

~守着~

有些事不说不代表没事。。。

说了也不代表没事。。。

难道有些话是那么难开口吗？

也许吧！

有时，做人真的好累。。。

尤其是做好人~

有时，我担心自己~

以后会变成另外一个人

承诺的定义又是什么？

如果违背承诺，那不该有这两个字。。。

也许我真的想不开~

对我而言，

我真的接受不到

可是想了很久。。。

我该看开点~

要开始违背承诺！

违背承诺真容易~

有这样想过~

可是我做不到。。。

如果承诺是用来违背，那就不要许下承诺

当时也想起一个人

在去年我许下了承诺

直到现在我还守着它~

谢谢你相信我~

我会永远记得。。。

真正的人生才刚开始

还有漫长的路~

我会继续往前

只是有些东西会改变。。。

那三个字再也不会出现在我字典里。。。

Emotions & emotions...all over again~

I’m getting so pissed off…Being rude in such a way really drives me up to the wall!!! A simple manner will do… Please do not take advantage of me. I did not do anything, did not say anything, did not rise up my voice etc. doesn’t mean I’m afraid ok! I chose this way becoz I do not want to make things worse. I think it’s difficult to understand what I meant. Just to say…do not force me to do something bad~ I really meant it. There is a limitation within each person so don’t try to test my patience. Once it burst, it will burst!

~Sorry…need to release my anger or emotion over here~

Back to Ipoh. Once I reached ipoh, the first thing is visit my grandma who admitted to hospital few days ago. She is feeling better… Wish her healthy always. Then, went back home to bath…go for dinner…then rush back home…get my car & meet up with my fren. Thank u so much. Thanks for listening, guiding, believing in me, give me confidence…I really truly appreciate all the things u have done. I will remember each of them. Sorry for troubling you~ Honestly, I’m touched. Actually, I have a lot of stories to tell u but too bad time is limited. Thanks for listening all those fuss…I have a lot of problems rite? Haha! Last but not least, I will not disappoint u this time. If not because of a few of them, I do not think I can be tough and survive in this journey…

*NEXT: Holland vs Russia*

Giving up...

Giving up...
I'll throw it all away...

I never said this wouldn't hurt. But I would say it's all over~ Dreams are often dreams~ Everything will back to the beginning...

*May happiness alwiz be with u*

Disappointment strucks once again~

Why is it so hard to accept or forget certain things? My mind keep appearing the phrase...I really do not wanted this kind of results. I'm really disappointed with myself. Felt so lost, so useless, so angry... What's wrong?

Thx to those who concern & I'm really touched for those who offers help & guide me. Pls do not give up on me yet~ I will not disappoint u. Really hope this was the last time.

May 15~resting day...

Today, I didn't go for work as I'm not feeling well. Fever again~ Sigh... But I'm feeling better now. Thanks for those who concern. Truly appreciate. During this period, I can see the real attitude of a person. I'm really disappointed but I guess that's a part of our life. So, I won't bother it as at least I have those who really cares. Thanks :)

Tomorrow will be the last day for my internship...Finally I can relax...and of coz celebrate..hehe! Going back to hometown soon~

*Miss u*

~short post~

It's been a long time since I last blog. A lot of happenings but all the great memories will kept in my heart & mind forever. All the best to 24 of them~ Dream what you dare to dream. Go where you want to go. Be what you want to be~  Cheers to my new friends...ji muiz...and another family of mine!

Currently, Im sick. haiz, sick again~ :( Flu...cough...swt~ I've been having flu for the past few days till now. sigh~ Wishing 4 a speedy recovery.

To my fren who is currently in U.S, take k ya~ Hope to hear frm u once u r back...

Countdown to 7 days~ I will be having my break soon... :)

home sweet home

Finally, I went back to ipoh that day. Long time didn't go back...miss those nice food. I hv met many ppl and most of them said I have changed...become matured...Yea, I agree that I have changed. I can be independent!!! I can be....erm....dunno how to describe, but definitely not the 'ME' that u all knew last time. I dunno whether it's good or bad but I didn't break any rules, kill or murder...SO I guess it's good right?...:) Whatever it is, I'm still the gal who will cry when I'm sad...will care for my loved ones...and the list goes on. Most importantly, I will be happy if u all are happy.  Hence, Queen must be happy ya! Dun give up^-^ Will support u all d way...

I fall sick!!!! Weak... sigh!!! But I'm glad that most of u care & concern about me...thank u so much! Especially my family in pss. I really feel warm. I will recover faster ya! :) Take k everyone...

Tiring~~

“It’s hard to wait around for something that u know might not happen, but it’s even harder to give up, when you know it’s everything u ever wanted.” So ppl would always wonder whether they hv to give up or hold on to something? No matter it is regarding relationship, frenship, studies & others… it’s hard to make a decision as once it’s gone, it’s gone forever…It will be too late to regret.

At times, I wait for something which I knew it would not happen, but at times I choose to give up and let it go just like that. What is right? What is wrong? Who knows? Except myself…but I’ve always regret on what I’ve done. Well, don’t cry over the spilt milk…but it’s useless as I just can’t stop thinking about it. How I wish I can let go everything….giving up certain things…free my mind….But no matter how many times I say, my mind just oppose everything. What am I suppose to do? How I wish there is someone who would really, truly understand me! I’m really tense…Most importantly, I’m exhausted. I really need a break. My emotion can be described by using low key & high key. Sometimes anger just arouses...then the next minute I feel down… I think I’m going to murder myself soon.

That day, I got this opportunity to watch the competition live. I really want to thank Tris and her gang for making my dreams/wishes comes true. Although we knew each other not long ago, but I truly appreciate. J I was glad to meet each of them. Thx again!

-I’m tired of being the girl whose heart is broken but still wears a smile-

~sorry~

I always have this kind of thought... ‘No matter how hard I work, I still lose’. Negative thinking and that should not appear in my mind. But I still fail to do so. I’m really sorry and truly apologize to those whom I let them down. I really try to be tough but I’m lying myself. I ain’t that tough, everything is just acting. I try very hard to hold back my tears whenever I just think about it. How am I now? Pain, that’s what I felt. Honestly, I’m really tired…Tired and fed up with all the things happening and spinning around. I do not know what to say, how to answer, how to reply…Speechless, tired, hurt that’s what I can say now.

Sorry that I bring bad news again. Pls do not say sorry to me as I'm d one who should say sorry. I felt guilty when u say sorry to me.

Thanks to those who encourage and console me, especially those whom I just knew not long ago, u all still care & concern about me. I truly appreciate it.

I need some time to cool down and stand up once again. Guess I’ll be ok after that.

-It’s a bad day-